My whole life has been hared for me.I havent realy had enough of a life to be just a normal kid.Sometimes i wonder what death would be like to just take over me...consume me.My 5 realy good  freinds have talked me out of it...gosh numerouse times.Moving from foster family to foster famliy ive never whanted to come out of the house.Cause every where i go people only know me as Oooo that the 'adopted'girl.Well..last night i whanted death so bad that it was like someone dieing of thirst for water.I tried so hared not to get a knife and slit my wrists.If i were to die it would have to be slow and tortureing cause thats basicly how my life is.As a matter of fact use life well.I mean it hasent worked out for me because..I geusse people belive in the so called holy heavenly father huh what the hell has he ever done for me..huh? If he was so great he wouldent be sitten on his big ass .The only thing good thing he probably has ever given me was my freinds.My apologies if i have offended you with this article.